It’s been a bit quiet for me lately. Since September I’ve been posting here a lot less and not been quite as creative as I used to be on other channels. Hopefully, in this post I aim to shed some light on the situation.
At the end of September, I got myself a temporary callcentre job with the council. It was a brief experience but it left a bit of an impact on me. I’m not the most emotionally stable at the best of times and, in that job, it was very much the worst of times having to deal with what I was tasked with. I eventually left the job and resumed with being unemployed but I felt like a failure after the experience. Not for having done a bad job but not being able to secure a follow-up job during the course of employment. A lot of plans ended up being cancelled due to lack of funds or lack of motivation and it left me in a bit of a desolate wasteland, creatively speaking. I don’t think I’ve ever been quite as dried up in terms of inspiration in such a long time. Coupled with some health issues I’m working through, though only some chronic stuff I’ve been dealing with for years, 2018 ended with less of a bang and more of a stifled crunch. This is disappointing given how well the year started for me. I had ideas and struck gold on one or two occassions but managed to fall at the last hurdle fairly hard. This is not how I mean to go forward but is something I have to accept if I am to move on.
The good news out of all of this is that I have managed to secure a new job. In fact, I start work tomorrow as it happens. It is a full-time job and, while my free time will no doubt take a massive dive, this job will enable me to finally start rebuilding the crumbling empire that is my creativity. I can begin saving money to put towards new equipment such as a new computer, media software, maybe even some cameras and microphones to record movies like I did last summer. I can begin to crawl out of some of the debts that being unemployed have left me in. Hopefully, this time next summer, I’ll be back in the saddle again creating new, great things for you all to see.
Sadly, that time-frame is something I must address. You see, in order to make this happen, I’m going to have to halt excessive spending as much as possible. Ideally, from my calculations, until around April. This will probably mean that I won’t be around as much for the next 4 months. I do hope you understand that this decision is for the greater good and, when complete, can only lead to great things. I will still exist during this time on Twitter and you might see more of me in smaller capacity in the lead up to April, but I’ll be trying my utmost to stay off the radar and avoid any unnecessary spending until everything’s back to normal again.
Thank you for your patience during this time, have a happy new year and I’ll no doubt see you when this period ends. I’ll try and have some cool stuff to show you when I return.
A lot can change in 4 months…
EDOOWINNIE 